The past year was probably the toughest I ever had, I moved to another town, all my brothers moved out, so I was alone with my parents, which I wasn't used to, I lost my best friend, who I thought would be my best friend forever, my grandpa passed away, so many things changed, I felt uncomfortable so many times, I wasn't good at making new friends, because I'm quite a shy person when I am in front of a big amount of people. I felt like I was not good enough, not funny enough, not interesting enough, not pretty enough. I saw my old friends having fun while I was sitting alone at home and had nothing to do and felt lonely. It was a year full of pain and sadness, but also it was a year with a lot of great stuff that happened, dreams came true. I made new friends, started to get used to my new town (even though I still don't feel like I accepted being here), I met a lot of people on Twitter who became my friends, I achieved goals I never thought I would achieve, like writing for a newspaper or reaching 1k follower on Twitter. I did stuff I always wanted to do, like visiting Paris and going on top of it. Dreams came true like getting tweets from the OTHcast, who gave me a lot of strength. This year I started realizing who my real friends are and and who I can really count. I started to appreciate the little things, the tiny things. I guess this year just made me stronger and I am actually quite proud that I was able to make it.
Today was the last day of school before summer break so I am getting quite emotional thinking of the past year. I know the next years wont be easy too but I feel like I'm ready to fight for my dreams and that I can be the person I want to be. I know there are going to be struggles, but I know I can face them.
When I think of the past year, I don't think of all the heart ache and pain, I'm just thinking of all the things I achieved and the things I was able to go through by myself.
I'm writing this to give you all who are having a tough time some strength, and tell them that it does get better and that there's always something to look forward to. And I want you all to believe in yourself, because that's sometimes all you have.
I also want to thank all the people who were by my side through this tough time and ho supported me, I can't thank you enough.
I hope y'all are having a fantastic day <3
